Moving again. Yupp.. I can't wait. New beggining's. Me and the hubby sure as hell need it. It seem's all we've been doing for the past six month's is argue argue and argue.. now it's not like 24/7 it's on and off again. We have our "good" day's, but here lately it's been more "bad" day's. And that really suck's. The other day I almost left & took a break. I thought about it I seriously did. I've been thinking ALOT about it for a while now. But at the same time I don't want to give up on us. What we had was soo good for such a long time. I just don't know what it is. He never want's to go anywhere or do anything... I'm a stay at home wife, I like to go out and do thing's where as he's just content with staying home, watching tv drinkin a beer. I don't know, maybe our age is a problem after all. Whenever I even think of us taking a break.. I don't know maybe to work on ourselve's.. then we could come back together when we are both ready and heal our marriage. But anytime I bring that up.. he tell's me that there's nothing we can work on apart, and if I leave then I'm leaving him and I don't love him and it's over for good. I should just sign on the dotted line on divorce paper's on my way out. I don't know.. thing's were going so good for such a long time. I don't get it. I don't know what happened or what went wrong and when it did? I'm so confused. I've been angry for such a long time and I know that that has something to do with it but I don't know. This marriage is so hard right now.. I feel that I try to explain how I feel and why I feel that way, and even though he say's that he understand's I don't think that he does fully. It seem's that we are fighting over the same issue's time after time, and it get's old.. and it got old real quick. I'm so confused. I'm willing to make this work. I know that in the end this will work but I think that maybe I just need some "me" time. Is that too much to ask? Am I self-fish? But then I don't know what I'd do with out my husband he's been a big part of my life for almost 3 year's now. See I'm so confused. Another thing is I fucked up and told him about my blog... I didn't tell him what site or anything like that... but now he want's to read it. I told him it was a diary, he asked if it was a diary that I'd let the world read but not him.... once again he didn't understand... but why should I expect him to right? So he'll probably find it and that'll be another problem... hmmm.

I just want it to be a good healthy normal happy relationship/marriage again.. is that too much to ask?