I'm still trying to get used to the hubby's new job and new hour's. He's been working ALOT. Friday he didn't get home til like 6:30 the next morning. It's crazy. I've had alot of "alone" time. You know? More time to reflect and think about stuff.

But I know in the long run this job will pay off. He has big opportunitie's to move up and it's easy work. So you couldn't ask for anything better. This will help us get out of debt and buy a house ALOT sooner, than expected. And plus it will help us, get all the thing's that we want and desire. So this is really going to help us big time.

Hmmm....

I'm struggling again with a friend. She lie's to me. (she's the married one too) I think that she think's my life is so great and everything. And she trie's to compare our relationship's and trie's I guess "keep up with the jone's". You know, if I tell her something about my life then she's like ooh yea... blah blah blah and trie's to out-do. And it suck's that she tries to compete with me, cause all I want is her friendship. But then again I don't know if I will ever get that again. We lost it a while ago and nothing is even remotely coming back. So I don't know what to do.

Let's see,

Nothing really else is going on. So I think I'm gonna hop of here and clean or something.. lol

Til Next Time..

I truelly am blessed with the life that I have. I may not have everything that I ever wanted, but who does? I do know that there are people worse off than me. I alway's count my blessing's, cause I know it can be gone tommorrow.

Trust me, I haven't alway's been this lucky before. I grew up poor, with a drug-dealer stepdad. And then when I was a pre-teen, my mom moved us to a different state, with a stranger (we never met him til the day when we moved with him) who didn't have a job, who lived in a one bedroom apartment. (there were 4 kid's and he had 3). I've had disappointment in my life. I still can't look my mom into her eye's without disappointment going through my mind. I haven't lived with her in almost 3 year's, and I'm still angry as hell at her. I've watched my mom get hit, and watched my rent money get spent on drug's. I've gone without electric so my "step-dad" could have his "fix". And there was nothing my mom could do.

But it has made me grow up and appreciate what I have that much more. It has made me thank my husband for getting up and going to work everyday and make sure our bill's are paid. It make's me realize that not every woman has to do as a man say's, and that my opinion count's. I get so happy when I can buy the non-generic food and be able to buy whatever food I want and eat it whenever I want.

I also realize how hard my husband work's to give us this life, and I realize that he love's me and there is a thing in true love. Cause my mom's current and past relationship that isn't love. What they have and done doesn't prove there love. And I hope that someday my mom will realize this before it's too late. I hope that she find's true love and find's a man as good as my husband.

Now don't get me wrong, me and the hubby we fight and argue. We scream and yell at eachother but at the end of the day we know that we didn't mean what we yelled. We know that we love eachother and we resolve it!

I guess I got a one in a million guy out there.

Lucky Lucky Lucky ME!
Chubbz

So it's almost six-thirty and my hubby is still working. And he maybe working a long while longer. Which suck's, but I knew that this was going to come along with the new job. I guess it's just something that I have to adjust too. If I want to live a better lifestyle then he has to put in the hour's. So hopefully I will get a new vehicle..! Then maybe I'll go and get my permit and license. lol

It just suck's sitting here all day, and then at night his brother stay's with us. But here's the catch... He's an acoholic and he just babbles on and on. So I get the fun part of putting up with him everynight! But not for long. I'm going to tell the hubby that if he is going to work these hour's every single night, then his brother can just get a hotel. Cause it's no fair that, I have to put up with him everynight. And I'm not going to! I'd rather be alone. lol

Hope this new job really pay's off financially, I'm just afraid of what these long hour's is going to do to our relationship. I'm not the type of person to just wait on someone else for my whole life. I guess.. he'll just be a weekend husband?!?! But there's nothing I can do now. Hopefully it pay's off in the end and our kid's (if we ever have any :/) reap the benefit's. And we give them a good life.

Maybe now well be able to buy a house. Hopefully!

So I'm going to meet someone. A girl.. she's 19 like me. I'm going to meet her through our landlord's grand-daughter. Were going to get drunk together. I don't know if the hubby is going to like me with a friend. I never really been him and my friend's before. I'm a little bit more wild, loud and not so reserved. So me and this girl we plan on going clubbing and everything else. Which is good, considering the fact, the hubby is going to be working alot more hour's than the last job. So at least I'll have someone around. Hopefully we click. But if not, then I can hang out with her long enough to meet her friend's... yada yada yada and meet new people :) So either way it's win win!

I'm really excited. Thing's are good in the house. The hubby really like's his new job. Which is good. And plus did I mention, he's making more money at this job then his last too! So it's pretty awesome. We are looking into a house that we had thought about buying in the past. So, we might be moving. Which I think maybe a good thing, cause across the street, is a diner, and I was already offered a job there. (we know the lady that's going to be taking over) So thing's are looking up. I guess, all you gotta do is give thing's time. And when the timing is right, thing's will fall into place.

I just got done reading a book called "lovely bone's". I must say it was pretty good. It give's you some thought on heaven and such. I've been thinking alot about heaven lately. Even more since my friend passed away. And I think I'm going to start going to church. I know that when I have kid's that I want them to go to church everyweek. And so I figure maybe me and the hubby should start going now. The only problem is, we don't know what church to go to right now... so I guess we have to start "trying them out". You know?

I have thought about de-activating my blog here lately. It seem's that no one is hardly ever on the stream.. I thought about going to a different site, and restarting my "diary" if you will. But I'm still undecided. Hmm.. well see what the future hold's!

Til Next Time...
Me :)

So the hubby started his new job yesterday. I have to say, I was kinda glad. Yes, enjoyed his company for about a week straight. But I have my ritual's I guess you could call them that I like do during the day. And he just get's in the way. I like thing's done a certian way, and he does them completely opposite. So I try to explain to him that it would be a lot better if he left the housework and such up to me, but he wouldn't have it. Can you believe that we have actually fought, cause I didn't want him to help me clean the house. Now that's just crazy right? But if he put's stuff away, then I can never find it, especially in the kitchen. Hopefully with the income tax money I will be able to get my dishwasher and such.

So I'm doing alot better than the other day. I have come to realize that god hasn't gave us a baby yet, cause I still need to grow up and mature. He's giving me time to party a little bit more, so when I do get pregger's I won't miss it. Even though I haven't partied since I moved in with my hubby, I do plan on going up to our hometown(without him) and partying all weekend. That's gonna be alot of vodka that's gonna get drank. lol

So I'm looking forward to that. I figured I'd wait til when he start's working his mad hour's, so that way he won't miss me, and he won't be sitting at home alone. Instead he'll be at work.. much better huh?

I'm so jealous the hubby got this beautiful truck (his new company truck). I want one! That's what I told him. And he promised that when we had enough steady income and credit, that he would buy me one. :)

Hmm.. nothing really going on here this weekend, the same as alway's. lol Just hangin with the hubby. I swear he get's sexier and sexier everyday ;-) It amazes me, I find a new reason to love him more everyday...