Finally got my computer fixed and my internet on. Not only just internet but also CABLE which is awesome let me tell ya. I've missed it so much but yet, still I barely even watch it. I guess with the kid's here and such, I've been running around like a chicken with her head cut off. Picking up wet towel's (I have a pool), washing this dish, clearing off that counter.. blah blah blah. Ya know! It's like I have 3 kid's... haha. They behave well so far.. but isn't that the way it alway's work's? Hahaha. But I'm enjoying this tremoundsily it actually give's me something to do during the day instead of being a couch potatoe. Ya know?

Let's see.. my "roommate's" are still here..unfortunately. I give them til next payday and either they get an apartment or an hotel room I can't deal with her much longer.

The husband is still working.. he should be getting home within the next hour or so. I can't wait we got the new Harold and Kumor movie and I've been waiting to watch it with him. Were going to snuggle up in bed and watch it together.

I've been so tired here lately these kid's are sure something.. it's not even just the kid's but taking care of the house and such. We got one of our cat's back that ran away the other day.. and boy was he tore up! He has a puncture wound on the inside of his hind leg's it pussing and everything. And he's really skinny!! So we took him to the vet, and he got three different medicine's. Let me tell you that was fun trying to give it all to him! Haha.. but he's getting better....I guess he had a really high number of parasite's in his body and such and that's why he's so skinny right now.. But they gave us some can cat food to give him 2 time's a day and that's suppose to help beef him up. Hopefully he'll heal in no time.. at which I don't see why not.

Hmm... I think that's it. Oh wow I just realized something.. it's actually quiet right now.. I better cherish this haha.

Well the dryer just went off, more clothes to fold and put away so I better hop of this bitch.

-Chubbz

So here's the thing the nephew/gf thing not so good afterall. Turn's out this bitch is stealing my stuff. After week's of us letting her stay with us, feeding her, putting up with her not cleaning and not doing any of the housechore's like we have previously agreed now she is stealing my shit. I am beyond pissed and have been for some time now. Okay let me start over...

See as we were moving back into the trailer, while I was packing my clothes I noticed a couple of thing's were missing. I thought maybe they were misplaced, after all I did have a couple of people help me pack. So I brushed it off. We moved back into the trailer and I started unpacking.. didn't come across the clothes that were missing.. unpacked more... guess what still no show. Finally I unpacked everything.. and still no sign of the clothes. (This was before they came down) So I tell the hubby that I think something is up. He say's I'm being paranoid. One day her and the nephew are gone, I thought I heard her cell ring in their bedroom so I go in to either answer it or silence it, well it must of been the tv cause there was no cell, but there was a couple shirt's that I have been missing. Mind you not all of them.. but 2 out of like 5-6. So I confront her, she say's maybe they got mixed up in our laundry, which I highly doubt and still think that she stole. But for my nephew's and hubby's relationship sake I say okay okay whatever. So a week or two later I find another tank top and we borrowed the nephew's truck to go the store, and in there I find a bottle of Victoria Secret lotion that I'd been missing. All of these item's were up in the room (at the old house) where she and my nephew had stayed the night a couple of time's. I still haven't came across all of my shirt's yet, but I think in time I will. Well tonight, I go in there room to get a dvd to watch, only to find one of my belly button ring's in there. So that mean's she's still stealing my shit. Cause the belly ring was in a little box in a cabinet in my bathroom which mean's she's also going through my shit.

So right now I'm berate I want to punch this bitch (pardon my french) in her face. I want to confront her, but I know that she'll lie, and make up shit. So I tell the hubby to deal with it. After all if it was up to me she would of been gone the first week she was here.. no if an's or but's about it. You know what his response was "dear I don't know what to do, hopefully they move out soon" I told him that they have or week or their homeless I don't give a fuck!!

I mean would you? If this girl come's in using all of your shaving creme, hair spray etc.. and then can't even offer to vacume? Not to mention the fact how she basically lies to your face and tries to act like your friend??

I found a note that she wrote the nephew saying that me and my husband act like "they owe us the world" and that she can't "handle living here anymore". Yeah I bet it's soo hard to sleep til one wake up eat someone else's food dirty their dishes, take a shower, use there shit and then sit on your ass and watch them pick up after you. Life must be so rough. Ya know??

She has my blood boiling to no end. You don't even know how much I want to go in there yannk her out of bed by her hair and just hit her.. haha. But I contain myself, not for fear of getting beat up, but cause I love my husband and don't want him to lose his relationship with the nephew. That's the one and only reason.

Anyway's I'm gonna get off here...

Til next time..
Chubbz

Moving again. Yupp.. I can't wait. New beggining's. Me and the hubby sure as hell need it. It seem's all we've been doing for the past six month's is argue argue and argue.. now it's not like 24/7 it's on and off again. We have our "good" day's, but here lately it's been more "bad" day's. And that really suck's. The other day I almost left & took a break. I thought about it I seriously did. I've been thinking ALOT about it for a while now. But at the same time I don't want to give up on us. What we had was soo good for such a long time. I just don't know what it is. He never want's to go anywhere or do anything... I'm a stay at home wife, I like to go out and do thing's where as he's just content with staying home, watching tv drinkin a beer. I don't know, maybe our age is a problem after all. Whenever I even think of us taking a break.. I don't know maybe to work on ourselve's.. then we could come back together when we are both ready and heal our marriage. But anytime I bring that up.. he tell's me that there's nothing we can work on apart, and if I leave then I'm leaving him and I don't love him and it's over for good. I should just sign on the dotted line on divorce paper's on my way out. I don't know.. thing's were going so good for such a long time. I don't get it. I don't know what happened or what went wrong and when it did? I'm so confused. I've been angry for such a long time and I know that that has something to do with it but I don't know. This marriage is so hard right now.. I feel that I try to explain how I feel and why I feel that way, and even though he say's that he understand's I don't think that he does fully. It seem's that we are fighting over the same issue's time after time, and it get's old.. and it got old real quick. I'm so confused. I'm willing to make this work. I know that in the end this will work but I think that maybe I just need some "me" time. Is that too much to ask? Am I self-fish? But then I don't know what I'd do with out my husband he's been a big part of my life for almost 3 year's now. See I'm so confused. Another thing is I fucked up and told him about my blog... I didn't tell him what site or anything like that... but now he want's to read it. I told him it was a diary, he asked if it was a diary that I'd let the world read but not him.... once again he didn't understand... but why should I expect him to right? So he'll probably find it and that'll be another problem... hmmm.

I just want it to be a good healthy normal happy relationship/marriage again.. is that too much to ask?

So I have been looking for a job and I applied for one.. had an interview and they are all booked for their training classes. So I have to wait. Tommorrow I am going to put in application's for restuarant's. I'm going to be a waitress.. it'll be nice tip's everyday and a paycheck. This will help me and the hubby get out of debt. I can't wait to get caught up. That's all I want to do right now is get caught up.. I've had this crazy idea about moving again.. I know I know... soo soon, but we need a bigger place.

Oh yeah, I'm down to 2 dog's and a cat. Well as you know one of my cat's ran away from our last house and we never got to catch him, so he's pretty much a wild cat now. And my other KITTEN got MURDERED the other night. I had this big black dog that I only put up with cause the husband wanted him, so I didn't like him to begin with. But he attacked my kitten the other night.. slit it's throat open.. the kitten never had a chance, so I've been pretty heartbroken about that whole ordeal. So needless to say that dog that I only put up with for the hubby is gone!! He's a cat killer, and even though it was an "accident" I will never forgive him.

So that's what's new with me....

I see that Angie has de-activated her blog which really sadden's me. I enjoyed reading her blog post's. Everyone is leaving.

=(

-Chubbz

Looking back through all of my old blog's and previous post's over the year's I have realized how much I've grown and matured. I can't believe that I've typed soo many page's. And then I can't believe that there are people on here with 100 plus page's. That's crazy. Eventually I will get there too!! I know for a while there I didn't post anything there's was just time's in my life when.. I didn't feel like typing. When there simply wasn't anything to type. But no more. I'm finally taking control of my life. I'm living how I want to. I don't give a shit if anyone like's it or not! Ya know?

So last night that girl came over. I'm not sure if I ever mentioned her before. I've been talking to her online and briefly met her once through a mutual friend. So she came over and the mutual friend. We had a couple of drink's.. laughed ALOT. The hubby went in the bedroom and watched South Park dvd's so the girl's could have the living room which was really sweet. By the end of the night (around one) boy was I drunk!! I definately like this girl. And I think we are going to have lot's of fun together in the future. We even had the same purse!! haha. Which was awesome. She really want's to go to some club's too!

All in all I had lot's of fun last night. And I really enjoyed myself. I wish I would of tried to meet people sooner, cause obviously I've been missing out on soo much. There was one down side to last night. I woke up about five.. feeling very nauseous. OMG it was horrible. I still feel nauseous. I thought that if I ate something that it would make my tummy feel better.. WRONG! So I dunno what's going on with it!

I haven't but in that application yet. I'm working on it. First I need to make sure that I have a ride. (still no license) But soon very soon.

I think that's it for right now. Buffy thank's for stopping by.. later I'll have to stop by your new blog!!

-Chubbz