It's sunday already, I can't believe the weekend is over. It sucks. I enjoy my full time alone with Charlie and it seems that only on the weekend is when I get this time! *yea* See, my fiances company where we live, is "out of town" work, so his dad being the boss, is always back and forth. And when he's down here he stays with us. At which I'm not saying that I mind, but we just dont get any "alone time". We have to wait til he's asleep before we can get intimate. I mean I know we could while he's awake, but it's wierd you know??? I just cant find myself to do it.

So tonight the hubby cooked dinner. But I can honestly say that it sure was YUMMY! I dont have any complaints, I mean shit, I should let him cook more often. But why was I afraid, I have to admit, that he really does have amazing cooking skills, among with other skills. As a matter of fact, he's the one teaching me how to cook! yup! I know.

So the whole ex story that I posted, well I have an update. So on myspace, that's where she would keep adding me, well she deleted me off again! And hasnt sent me any messages. Well, you know what they say "no news could be good news!". Me and Charlie think its cause, it took her six years to get an engagement ring, and thats six years living together! Lets see...hm..it took me about 8 months. Well I moved away from my friends, and since I hardly see them, well, I posted a pic of my ring. Then a couple days later, I posted pics of my future Hubby to be! This too probably pissed her off too, figuring the fact that he would never allow her to take pics and post them, he wouldnt let her post any old pics either! yup!!! So you see...I acheived much more, than she achieved in 6 years!

I guess I kind of feel bad, but then again, she's over him! She's with someone else, they didn't get along...soo...I kind of don't! I dont know exactly how I should feel about the whole thing!

I can't believe this Friday! This freaking friday I will be married! I'm soo happy and excited. I love this boy soo much! And he takes such good care of me! He spoils me, loves me, tells me I'm beautiful every single day! You don't even know! I love this boy soo much!!! Oh, wait..I think I might of already mentioned that!

so its saturday night, and charlie is already asleep. guess what im watching! guess...ok, yea, its clueless. i havent seen this movie in forever, and there's nothing else on...so, i figure i'd watch it. do you know what movie i really love...drop dead fred! yea, i own it, and charlie's watched it once with me, and i think that was enough torture, our movie is definately Joe Dirt. we love that movie and have watched it like a million times together! yup.

so earlier, me and charlie got into this like arguement/debate about our kids. yea, our kids that we dont even have (yet). i mean im not even pregnant! gawd, i can only imagine what it'd be like when we do have kids. ok, so back to the subject at hand. somehow we got on the topic of 'what if our kids would turn out gay'. and boy is he against it! he said first of all, he's going to try to teach them, subtly that gay isnt allowed, and that its an abonination. and that his kids are going to church, and they will instill that, and thirdly, he wouldnt talk to them, if they turned out gay. and he said he wouldnt give them money to buy their gay lovers stuff!

yea, so i was completely threw off hand. completely, i was like what the fuck! now me on the other hand, im completely open minded, and told him that i would love them no matter what. plus i told him that we are not going to teach our kids that being gay is wrong, or that we would hate them, or god wont love them! cause god loves all of his childern no matter what! you know what i mean? and i told him that if he wants his childern to go to church then he's getting up bright and early every sunday and dragging his ass to church too! and i completely made sure that he knew that if our kids every needed help, financially, emotionally any way, gay or not we would help them any way possible! so i stuck to my guns! you know.

so...today i realized that we have alot to talk about when it comes to how were going to parent our childern...if they ever get here! well i think i might hit the hay...im gettin kinda tired....

sooo....

night ya'll!


"chubbz"

Name :	Felicia
Nick Name :	chubbz
Birthdate :	8/12/88
Birthplace :	Cleveland OH
Current Location :	Farmington PA
Eye Color :	green mostly
Hair Color :	blonde...for now
Height :	five somethin
Weight :	about 125-130
Piercings :	ears & belly
Tatoos :	none yet
Boyfriend/Girlfriend :	yup
Vehicle :	not yet
Overused Phrase :	whatever
FAVORITES
Food :	pizza or anything chocolate
Pub/Disc/Restaurant :	golden correal
Candy :	reeses
Number :	dont got one
Color :	purple
Animal :	kitty kat
Drink :	vodka/dr pepper
Body Part on Opposite sex :	back
Perfume :	curious
TV Show :	passions
Music Album :	eminem
Movie :	the notebook or joe dirt
Actor/Actress :	Jennifer Aniston
This or That
Pepsi or Coke :	coke
McDonalds or BurgerKing :	mc donalds
Chocolate or Vanilla	choc
Hot Chocolate or Coffee :	hot choc
Kiss or Hug :	kiss
Dog or Cat :	cat
Rap or Punk :	rap
Summer or Winter :	summer
Scary Movies or Funny Movies :	both
Love or Money :	love
YOUR...
Bedtime :	late
Most Missed Memory :	friends
Best phyiscal feature :	ass
First Thought Waking Up :	its noon already
Ambition :	to open an daycare
Best Friends :	too many
Weakness :	im too giving
Fears :	being alone
Longest relationship :	um...right now
HAVE YOU...
Cheated Your Partner :	nope
Ever been beaten up :	nope
Ever beaten someone up :	nope
Ever Shoplifted :	yup
Ever Skinny Dipped :	yup
Ever Kissed Opposite sex :	yup
Been Dumped Lately :	nope
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color :	doesnt matter
Favorite Hair Color :	dark
Short or Long :	short
Height :	taller than me
Style :	preppy kinda, everyday ware
Looks or Personality :	both
Hot or Cute	cute
Muscular or Really Skinny :	neither
RANDOMS
What country do you want to Visit :	australia
How do you want to Die :	in my sleep with charlie holdin me
Been to the Mall Lately :	last weekend
Get along with your Parents :	now i do
Health Freak :	nope
Do you think your Attractive :	somedays
Believe in Yourself :	depends on what it is
Want to go to College :	someday
Do you Smoke :	no
Do you Drink :	occasionally
Shower Daily :	no...bathe tho
Been in Love :	am right now
Do you Sing :	yup
Want to get Married :	soon :-)
Do you want Children :	hopefully soon too
Age you wanna lose your Virginity :	17 when i did
Hate anyone :	yup, wait how did you know???

new background. you know? you like? i like it...its soo pretty. girly...like me. i never understood or realized at the point that i became girly. it just kinda happened! you know?

see...growing up, i was in a household with 3 brothers and no sisters. now that sucked. i did have a sister though, but a half sister...different mom, same dad...you know. so i never actually lived with her. anywho...going back to the point. i grew up in a house with almost all boys, the only other female was my mom. now my mom she definately is not a girly girl. with 3 brothers, i didnt really have a chance to play barbies, for the fact that everytime i tried, their heads got popped off. *poor barbies* and my brothers loved watching wrestling, so i was the easy target the person they got to try all the new moves on! so i had to learn to be tough, i never had time to put makeup on, or do my hair. hell even now, i wear my hair on freakin way...its permed, so i wash it, brush it, put mousse in it. thats it!

so i still cant remember when i became "girly" all i know is i like people doing my hair, i put makeup on every day, i love getting my nails done, i go tanning at least every other day, yea im kinda girly! i cant believe. i was always the tomboy, i was always the one that go stuck hangin with the guys. and after a while it kinda grew on me you know? then i started actually liking guys and they started liking me.... *blah.blah.blah* you know how it goes.

i just cant believe im here where im at right now!

so today is friday, and about the only thing im doin this weekend is going tanning! *yippie* lol. so the hubby came home early today. really early. like 12'oclock! yup. so now he's laying on the couch trying to drift off to sleep, to take lil nappy nap. lol. so is today the first day of spring? if so then it sucks. its gloomy outside, raining. we had to give the pup a bath cause he smelled. we had to put hay outside, to soak up the mud in our driveway. and he likes to roll around in it, and it makes him a stinky boy.

just to think this time next friday, i'll be getting married. wow. im still in shock. at first when we talked about when were gonna get married, i can stalled, i was scared, but it feels right. i hate change, i wish everything could just stay one way. you know? wow, i cant believe i actually have readers reading my blog! lol. im just glad that no one i know is on here. cause this is stuff i dont everyone that i know to know. you know what i mean?

so...someone told me to go into the chatroom, and i tried last night, but my computer wont let active-x work. and i tried but i got no clue as to what to change to make it work, you know to turn it on. so i can chat with everyone :) so...if ya got any advice lemme know...ok???