So, I didn't tell him to dispose of the dirty mag's..yet. I had this idea, since they are already boxed up. Why don't I just put them in a place where I just know where they are?? You know?? Since he want's to save them, cause they are "collector item's".

But the reason why I didn't bring them up today, is cause he was in a really bad mood, and had a really shitty day. He does paperwork, to document his hour's, and that's how he get's paid. Well, the main office, said that he sent his paperwork in too late, so we lost 40 hour's of work...so we will only be getting a 40 hour paycheck instead of 80. Bullshit aint it??? Plus we get 485.0 in perdeem each week (for doing out of town work) Well he just found out, that this week he will only be getting one day, cause it end's this month! A crock of shit...right????

Yea thought soo..plus it was muddy out (he work's outside) so it was shitty working condition's. And nothing went right at work today. So..I didn't want to add problems!! Yup..that's how my evening went. Plus..I'm on my rag so I couldn't give him some stress relieving sex!! awww...can it get any worse???

Soo...I think I may be done ranting now!! And explaining myself.. LOL. Soo..toodles..

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chubbz

So, I'm sitting here..on my ass, when I have soo much shit to un-pack still. It's exhausting and I have no ambition. Hopefully I got more accomplished then what I got yesterday, all I did was move the dog cage and move a chair yesterday!! *yay* go mee! But I didn't tell Charlie that, it would get his panities in a twist! LOL

Last night when I told Charlie that "becky" was prego, he got really upset. I didn't think it would effect him that way. Hell, I think he was more upset than me. But..soon..we can "practice" making that baby.. LOL

Let's see..nothing new..no funny stories Sorry. My life is soo boring. Soo..I think I'm done. I talked to my friend about that..problem (our relationship and her's) she really didn't say much. So I'm not quite sure what's going on with that.

Hmm..I think I might go and unpack some stuff, it might look funny nothing was unpacked but his magazines!! LOL

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~chubbz

Every man love's porn. Just about every man!! My husband liked to look at the dirty magazines, and watch the movies. I use to watch the movies, I must admit, with my friend Iris. But we didn't watch it to get off or anything. We watched it, to make fun of the guys and gal's. Honestly, even though my husband doesn't think that's the reason why we watched.

When we moved in together, I was unpacking our stuff, and came across all these magazines. I never wanted to see another woman/women like that. I have to admit it did make me blush. I'm blushing just thinking about it. In the past, he has mentioned "why don't we watch movies together..blah blah blah.." He doesn't get even though the many time's that I've tried to explain. It's embarrassing, it doesn't get me off, and I don't think you should get off like that. So..anywhoo, back to the point. I came across these magazine's. I asked him about them, told him I wasn't the least bit comfortable with them in the house. Of course being the man that he is was like " I don't look at them, I know your not like that, I'm saving them, they'll be worth money someday...blah blah blah..I don't see why your making a big deal out of it...blah blah blah" I tried to explain to him..that even though they are packed far far in the back of the closet, and I KNOW that you don't look at them, it's just the fact that I know they are there. He didn't understand, being as he is a man

So, I dropped it for a while. Didn't say anything. Then he proposed, then we got real serious about getting married. I told him the only way how we would get married, is if the magazine's are out of the house. He agreed, of course typical man will say anything to get the woman to shut up. We moved..they stayed packed. We never really unpacked everything (at our old house). So they stayed out on the porch. We got married. A big mistake, I didn't stick by my word. He still haven't looked at them. And to be honest, they slipped my mind for a while. Just til about an hour ago, when I was watching Sex and the City. And there was an issue about porn on there. So..I got to thinking. "hey..he never got rid of those magazines". I went in to explore, find them. Now they were mixed in with his old dirt bike magazine's. So I found an empty box..seperated them. Packed all the dirty one's taped the box. So it couldn't "accidently" come open, and tommorrow (seeing as he's in bed right now) I'm going to tell him to get rid of them. I don't care where or to who (eww). But I wan't them out of my house. I already know I'm gonna hear "why couldn't I pack them...what you think I'm gonna leave some behind..blah blah blah" But oh well..honestly I didn't want him to pack them, cause yes he may sneak a peak or something. And if he say's "NO, I'm not getting rid of them" then I'm saying "goodbye".

Now don't think I'm all against porn or anything. Cause that's not the case at all. I think that if your in a relationship and if you and your partner are into it, and are all for it, then be my guest go right ahead. (cause I know people like that). Or if your single, then go right ahead. But, if your in a relationship, where your partner doesn't like it (like me) or isn't all to comfortable with it, then respect their wishes. OR find someone, who's into that. You know what I mean? I know that Charlie use to go to strip club's, when we began talking again, and when he was still with his ex. And I didn't say anything cause we weren't together, we weren't having sex. So it wasn't my concern or problem. But when we did get together, and started having sex, then he hasn't went to the stripclub. He tell's me has no desire...but that might be a little white lie..LOL

My question for tonight is: Do you think that it's wrong that I made him give up his "porn" for me? Do you think that it's wrong cause I packed his stuff and am gonna make him give it away?? I wanna hear your opionion's. Even though my mind is made up, I think it'll be interesting!!

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Chubbz

So, it's official, NO BABY. Yup, good 'ol aunt flow showed up.. uninvited I might add.. Yup, so it really depressed Charlie, and me too, I might add. So our house really suck's right now. Honestly, I don't know what's wrong with my body. I don't understand why I can't get prego. I think I may want this more than anyone in this world. (maybe not world, but you know what I mean) Just today we found out that, our landlord's 17 year old grand-daughter is 4 months pregnant. With her boyfriend, of whom she really doesn't like, baby. And to top it off, she's still in school and he work's at Giant Eagle. Now why couldn't god of let us have a baby instead of her? We all know she can't afford to raise it. But me and Charlie can!! But still no baby.

The other day, I was doing some research on the net, about pregnancy..etc. And I read about cyst's. They can prevent you from having babies. My mom said they just freeze them right off, and that they are from having too much sex. So maybe that's the deal. Who know's.

I can't wait til I get my medical card. That way, I can just go to the doc's office and find out whats up with my body, and get some helpful hints. You know what I mean??

But, I am not letting this consume my life no more! Cause it doesn't do anything for me to just dwell on it. Soo...onto other things..

Since I moved away from all of my friends (all the ppl I graduated with) I have not tried at all to make any new one's. Well today the land lady's daughter's came up (that's how I found out about the pregnancy thing) and the one seem's cool (17 year old one). The older she's 19 and has a baby also. (He like a year old) I don't know about her. She seem's ok, like she say's that she drink's and stuff like that, but I dunno. So..I'll hang out with her a couple of more time's and who know's I might make some good friend's. Or maybe branch out..and meet some other people in my area.

It's just hard to meet people, when you know no-one, and I don't work or have school, so basically I'm fucked to meet anyone. But thing's are looking up!! Me and Charlie are looking over our finance's and he's going to lose his perdeem soon (an extra $485 a week, for doing out of town work) and we really got use to that lifestyle. So..in order to keep that for just a while, then I'm gonna have to get a job!! Just for a couple of months. So we can get everything caught up. Then I'm going back to school (college) and get a degree in something, that way I can make the big buck's.. LOL

Soo...I think I'm done..rambling on about random shit...

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Chubbz

I'm back! I'm back! I'm back, just for the moment though. Ok, so this weekend, we started moving. Got all of our shit packed and moved in one day!! We moved back to our old house. Which is good, cause all of the nail's are still up. So now all I got to do is unpack everything, and hang up stuff! So...were almost un-packed.

The only problem is, our washer and dryer didn't work at our old house (one of the reason's that we moved). So now, I'm really backed up on the laundry, not to mention, I have lot's and lot's blanket's to wash, cause our puppy is potty training, and he like's to piss everywhere! I mean everywhere, I have never had my bed pee'd on soo much. Gross isn't it??

Well, I'm stealing this internet or something like that, I'm not too sure. We have this wireless network thingy built into the computer, so..I'm getting signal..from somewhere or someone!! LOL...So I'm gonna get off here!!!

So..I won't be on for a couple of day's, due the lucky chore of "unpacking"!! *yay* me! :) So...gotta go..

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Chubbz