So we have gone out of town and came back. Actually we got back on Saturday, but this is the first time, I actually have time and the peace of mind to type. We had our niece with us, and she just went back about an hour ago. So now, I'm just trying to relax. It's weird I get so lonely when I'm by myself, but when people are around, all I want to do is run away and be alone. I swear nothing never satisfies me. And I don't know why. I'll admit, I'm hard to please, when I get what I want, I realize that isn't what I wanted to begin with. lol

So it made me so happy to see my grandparents. And I love the fact that my whole family (mom and dad's side) really like the hubby. That really puts a smile on my face.

So thank god we made it through another holiday. Good thing were staying home (alone) for Christmas, this year we'll actually get to enjoy it. lol

So I'm going to hop off here clean, clean, oooh yea... clean somemore. lol

Okay, I'll post more later,

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Me :)

I haven't posted in a couple of day's. I just haven't really had anything new here. Thanksgiving is approaching fast. Next week. Me and the husband are going out of town to visit my grandparent's and such. We have already agreed to watch my niece that weekend, so we will be taking her too. So this should be fun. Me and the hubby are only going up for a day or so, cause that's all his job allow's. Maybe next year we will be able to go up for a couple more day's (like last year).

I guess my grandpa is really sick. And that has been alot on my mind lately. He has gouch on his leg's and feet. And I think, I'm pretty sure it's kidney or liver failure. He's in the first stage and if it ever come's to it he's denying dyalsis. I'm really afraid that this is going to be his last thanksgiving with us. So I have been really worried about that. I wan't to make the most of this trip.

The husband is working looong hour's. Which really suck's. I'm home alone by myself alot of the time. Just me, the dog's, and the cat. Plus whatever is haunting my house.

Yes, my house it haunted. Thing's are flying off the table, the alarm is re-setting itself. So creepy shit it definately happening. I told the husband that we need to do something about this ASAP. Cause I can't live like this.

Tommorrow we are meeting with the landlord's to try to get something figured out for possibly buying this place. We like the location, neighbor's, it's a great asking price. It just feel's like home. There's alot of stuff we can do to fix it up, there's a lot of possibility with this place. So were excited.

Hmm, I'm trying to go think if there's anything that I should "report" here lol. Okay...I'm pretty sure that's it.

Til Next Time Bloggerz..
Chubbz

I'm still trying to get used to the hubby's new job and new hour's. He's been working ALOT. Friday he didn't get home til like 6:30 the next morning. It's crazy. I've had alot of "alone" time. You know? More time to reflect and think about stuff.

But I know in the long run this job will pay off. He has big opportunitie's to move up and it's easy work. So you couldn't ask for anything better. This will help us get out of debt and buy a house ALOT sooner, than expected. And plus it will help us, get all the thing's that we want and desire. So this is really going to help us big time.

Hmmm....

I'm struggling again with a friend. She lie's to me. (she's the married one too) I think that she think's my life is so great and everything. And she trie's to compare our relationship's and trie's I guess "keep up with the jone's". You know, if I tell her something about my life then she's like ooh yea... blah blah blah and trie's to out-do. And it suck's that she tries to compete with me, cause all I want is her friendship. But then again I don't know if I will ever get that again. We lost it a while ago and nothing is even remotely coming back. So I don't know what to do.

Let's see,

Nothing really else is going on. So I think I'm gonna hop of here and clean or something.. lol

Til Next Time..

I truelly am blessed with the life that I have. I may not have everything that I ever wanted, but who does? I do know that there are people worse off than me. I alway's count my blessing's, cause I know it can be gone tommorrow.

Trust me, I haven't alway's been this lucky before. I grew up poor, with a drug-dealer stepdad. And then when I was a pre-teen, my mom moved us to a different state, with a stranger (we never met him til the day when we moved with him) who didn't have a job, who lived in a one bedroom apartment. (there were 4 kid's and he had 3). I've had disappointment in my life. I still can't look my mom into her eye's without disappointment going through my mind. I haven't lived with her in almost 3 year's, and I'm still angry as hell at her. I've watched my mom get hit, and watched my rent money get spent on drug's. I've gone without electric so my "step-dad" could have his "fix". And there was nothing my mom could do.

But it has made me grow up and appreciate what I have that much more. It has made me thank my husband for getting up and going to work everyday and make sure our bill's are paid. It make's me realize that not every woman has to do as a man say's, and that my opinion count's. I get so happy when I can buy the non-generic food and be able to buy whatever food I want and eat it whenever I want.

I also realize how hard my husband work's to give us this life, and I realize that he love's me and there is a thing in true love. Cause my mom's current and past relationship that isn't love. What they have and done doesn't prove there love. And I hope that someday my mom will realize this before it's too late. I hope that she find's true love and find's a man as good as my husband.

Now don't get me wrong, me and the hubby we fight and argue. We scream and yell at eachother but at the end of the day we know that we didn't mean what we yelled. We know that we love eachother and we resolve it!

I guess I got a one in a million guy out there.

Lucky Lucky Lucky ME!
Chubbz

So it's almost six-thirty and my hubby is still working. And he maybe working a long while longer. Which suck's, but I knew that this was going to come along with the new job. I guess it's just something that I have to adjust too. If I want to live a better lifestyle then he has to put in the hour's. So hopefully I will get a new vehicle..! Then maybe I'll go and get my permit and license. lol

It just suck's sitting here all day, and then at night his brother stay's with us. But here's the catch... He's an acoholic and he just babbles on and on. So I get the fun part of putting up with him everynight! But not for long. I'm going to tell the hubby that if he is going to work these hour's every single night, then his brother can just get a hotel. Cause it's no fair that, I have to put up with him everynight. And I'm not going to! I'd rather be alone. lol

Hope this new job really pay's off financially, I'm just afraid of what these long hour's is going to do to our relationship. I'm not the type of person to just wait on someone else for my whole life. I guess.. he'll just be a weekend husband?!?! But there's nothing I can do now. Hopefully it pay's off in the end and our kid's (if we ever have any :/) reap the benefit's. And we give them a good life.

Maybe now well be able to buy a house. Hopefully!