Only one more day! *yup* Me and Charlie are soo excited. Um...I'm not too sure if I have much to type about. I want to tell about my mom, I think it may be some good "self-therapy". You know. But tonight is not the night. Tommorrow were going to go and get some things for our honeymoon!

Were not doing much for our honeymoon, due to the lack of funds, but...its going to be a special night. Cause now me and Charlie are bonded together. This is the greatest feeling in the world! Like you dont even know. Did you know that I still get butterflies from one kiss, to this day. But I heard that things change after you get married. But, me and Charlie make a pact, that we wouldn't changer nor stop having sex as often. Which is good for me.

Speaking of sex. I was a virgin til I was just about 18. Now that's some self-control! You know? But I'm glad I waited. Cause I got to share something with someone very special. As a matter of fact, Charlie waited almost a year! Now that's some patience! He wanted to make sure I was ready, and he was a gentlemen, didn't rush thing's. Took them at my pace. Now let me mind you, I'm not butt ass ugly or anything...it's not like guys didn't try sleeping with me, I just...knew that it wasn't right at the time! So, I'm glad that I waited. Cause I shared something special with someon special!

Ok, I'm not too sure why...I even posted that, or typed that. But I guess you can say that I'm proud. It wasn't easy, trust me, it was NOT easy! So...I think I may...goo to sleeep!

god im so sick of this ex drama. will she ever get out of my life??? ok, we both have myspace. so...she added me a while ago well, i told that whole story. so then i posted this blog to her, well here it is:

im sick of playing these head games. you claim that you've moved on, then stop dwelling on his life, seriously... you found someone new, he's found someone new, leave it alone! im sick of the bullshit...im sick of it all.

by you trying to interfere in our lives, isn't going to break us up. you need to face it, he's moved on, he's not coming back, he doesn't want you back. you dont even cross his mind, this might sound harsh but im sick of it! seriously...lets act our ages, im younger than you, but yet im still more mature than you.

were getting married whether you or your friends like it or not. ok? yes he's finally getting married...were tying the knot! it may hurt or whatever...but you'll get over it! and if you dont then you got serious problems. i dont want to start any shit, but stop adding me, deleting me, or whatever, trying to create problems for me and charlie. stop having your friends trying to add me, to find out about our life. its childish...get over yourself...ok???? well....im out...please dont add me, dont message me.... NOTHING!



thanks....

sincerly....



**soon to be Mrs. Coon**

>>>and then she posted this....

Yep this is just for you!!!

What makes people hate on other people?? Is is fear? Is it jealousy? Is it envy? What is it that makes someone become so obsessed with one person? All I have to do is sit back and laugh at these fools who have no life.. I am glad I HAVE A LIFE.. I have everything I want and more.. I don't depend on other people for the happiness in my life.... And what about these little girls that think they know what life is.. HAHAHA.. You think a ring on finger means forever.. little do you know YOU ARE # 4.. yep thats right # 4.. And remember once a cheater always a cheater.. Do you really know what he does during the day? Is he really at work? Lets hope... for your sake.. because you have the perfect little life that he is at work.. Do you think being like me.. will make him love you more.. is that what you want from me?? You have a lot of growing up to do dear child... Get over yourself.. you think you know everything there is to know.. YOU HAVE NO IDEA.. Believe what you want, think what you want.. keep talking your smack.. cuz all you do is make me laugh.. remember if ignorance is bliss.. then you must be the happiest person alive!!!



Much Love

~Neica

>>>so i posted this back....now i think if she responds or post's anything else, im just gonna be the bigger person and not respond to anything you know what i mean???
Let get some shit straight real quick... first of all, yea i know #4 to get the ring but remember im #1 to walk down the aisle! Me obsessed with you, boy you must be one confused person. Your the one sending me messages, your one always adding me, your obsessed NOT ME. Just cause he cheated on you, for what almost a whole year, doesnt mean SHIT! You know, we have something you guys didnt... HAPPINESS! Why dont you try accepting that. Oh yea...I know where he is, everyday, especially seeing as i do his paperwork, and he calls me at least 3 times a day...just to see how my days been. Oh yea you caught me...Im trying to be like you...cause that got you soo far in your relationship! Please dont hate cause you never got to post pics of him, please dont hate cause it took you what 6 years of bitching to get a ring and it took me eight months of living together! remember JEALOUSLY IS A TERRIBLE SICKNESS PLEASE GET WELL SOON. and leave us alone, were happy. just to think soon to be married :-) what you didnt believe me when i said were getting married??? the truth hurts huh???



have a nice day

>>>any advice???

yesterday was such a horrible day. it sucked majorly, even though it was such a beautiful day outside! you know i have soo many bitches about yesterday, but today was just as equally beautiful and today was actually an "ok" day! so im going to forget all about yesterday and concentrate on today a much better day. thank god!

ok, so this morning like i didnt even want to get out of bed, it was 11:30 and im like you know what, you gotta get up! so i forced myself out of bed. so i got up, and sat on my ass! i honestly really didnt feel like doing anything today. today felt like my lazy boring usual monday! you know?? im just glad, i didnt fall, hit my legs, stub my toes, or get a splinter today, so i guess im in really good shape!

so, when i finally got the ambition to clean the house, i got a call and charlie was on his way home. yup he came home fairly early. so i didnt get all of my house cleaned. but oh well. friday i go and get married! today i called and made the apointment, and were getting married at 11:30! i cant wait i am honestly the luckiest girl in the world!!!

soo...charlie just woke up, im gonna post another long one, later, i want to go and see if my hunny needs anything...ok???

bye...
for now bloggers!

'i just painted your room-its a very pretty shade of pink-daddy thinks you'll love it-me too!-next week we get your crib-im so excited-your big brother & sister cant wait to meet you-everyday my belly grows-as well as you-we narrowed your named down between two-Ashley Marie or Nicole Ann-we still havent decided-this is daddys first real kid-!-your gonna be so spoiled-i cant wait to meet you!'

'im sorry im so sad-im sorry me and daddy cant quite crying-we just dont understand-we did everything right-i ate healthy-read to you everynight-daddy sang to my belly-you were very healthy-but now your gone-life is so unfair-how can god of only gave you five short months in my belly to live?-i dont get it-me and daddy are soo sad-your were gonna be our everything!-you are our everything-you could of been anything-i guess god was short an angel-and needed you?-i dont understand-now your in my belly-not growing-not breathing-your just there?!?!-tommorrow you'll be gone-im getting a seasection with out an alive baby-what did me and daddy do to deserve this?-'

'i just wanted to tell you Ashley Nicole-that i love you-daddy loves you more than anything in this world-you know your his first child-this is the first time i've seen daddy cry-in a few minutes we shall lay you down to rest in your bed-every holiday im gonna bring you flowers-every sunday-i promise-you will be missed dearly-i know what you could of become-but now your in heaven now-looking down on us-guiding us through life-if i could i would give my life to save your life-but i wasnt given a choice-so now i will live everyday missing my precious Ashley Nicole-i hope you like the name!-i'll see you in heaven.'

i wrote this cause i felt that i needed too. i recently had a friend & his wife lose their daughter at just 5 months into the pregnancy. i can only imagine how hard it has to be for them. my heart goes out to them. i've known this couple for only a short time...but i still cried for them...no one should never experience i dont care who they are....

>>>ok so i actually wrote this a while back, i posted it on myspace, and thought i would share it here. this couple, that i wrote this about/for has no clue that i actually wrote this. this couple was my one my fiances buddys that he had grown up with and his wife. like i said before my heart goes out to them, and hope they really try again!

ok, so heres the deal with the whole chat thing, its not that my computer is old, its a new Toshiba Laptop a satellite one, so i know its not that, a security warning keeps popping up and thats whats not letting me use it, so...im still not sure what to do about it, or how to change the security. i keep trying to find out how to do in the Help Section, but it just keeps telling me not to do it...sorry ya'll :( anywho...i think i might just hit the hay anyway...curl up next to hubby, i think i may be a tad bit cold! lol

so nighty nite bloggers...

love

chubbz*