This week has been so shitty. First of all I haven't felt worth a shit the last week. I've felt nausues nothing sound's good (to eat) and I've had terrible headaches. Not to mention I keep stubbing my toes.. blah blah blah. All in all a shitty week.

This weekend I'm suppose to have my yard sale hopefully it doesn't rain. I want to get all of this shit out of my house. Whatever I don't see (besides my clothes) I am donating to goodwill and never looking back haha. I am trying to de-clutter this place. Hopefully in the next couple of month's I will have all the clutter gone, and we will begin painting and changing out the floor's and the trim throughout the place.. So by next summer I'm hopin to have this place lookin real nice. Ya know? It's going to be work work work but in the end it's going to pay off.

I am also (when I start feeling better) going to start dieting again and excercising reguraly. I have to make some changes in my life to make me feel better. Soo time will see...

Chubbz

Someday's well most day's I feel like I'm getting no where in life. For the past almost 3 year's I have been living (primarily) in this trailor. But yet I have never painted.. nothing. Everything is the same oh wait no it's not the trailor is shittier cause of the animals and alway's having roomate's blah blah blah. I'm still a housewife no more closer to getting a job or even a driver's license. This is not how I want to live my life. But yet this is how it's lived. Right now we have a $ -4.00 bank account cause the hubby doesn't listen to me about managing money. This weekend.. saturday we have $200 in the bank but with eating out.. a couple trip to Giant Eagle (instead of spending an extra 10 min driving to a cheaper store) and a movie. A dvd.. new release of which I could of waited for. He wanted to suprise me but yet I still haven't watched it. I think he's going to have to take it back so we can at least have twenty buck's for the week. And to top it all off I find out he's talking to his boss about our problem's. I use to talk to my mom and maybe a close friend or two about my problem's and I would get bitched out. About how private he like's his business to be.. blah blah blah... and now he's doing this shit to me?n It make's me angry. He's a completely different person now. I know he's trying to change for the better.. but sometime's I think he's "changing" just cause he's realizing that he's looking like a hippocrite. Hopeful having his friend and 3 kid's move out with help our marriage. I figure once there gone this will give us a chance to really work thing's out and there will be no more excuse's as to why it's working or not working out. But only time will tell.

I am willing to stick around to make thing's work. But if WE don't start doing shit right around here than I think I need to go and do thing's right for ME. Instead of "us". I don't know..

Hmm.. it seem's as though all my previous (including this one) posting's has been about my marriage and how much I think that it's not working out. And to be fair to him, he has been trying and being more thoughtful and romantic. I guess I just have to get used to this "new him". Hopefully we'll get everything smoothed over before to long.

Well I better get off here...
Chubbz

It's been a little while and ALOT has changed. First off.. I am once again un-employed. Yup not babysitting anymore. It just didn't work out. I was trying to get the kid's in a "routine" bedtime.. chores.. blahblahblah, ya know the whole nine. But when there dad got home it all went out the window, so the kid's would give me attitude (especially the middle boy) when I had to watch them, put them to bed, homework. Ya know.. well I told their father (my husband's bff) and he just told the boy to behave.. well I've been having problem's with him for a couple of week's and obviously "having a talk" with him wasn't getting the point across. So I thought that he should of been grounded for a day or two of not going outside or having friend's come inside. Appearantly I was wrong, cause now the kid's stay up the street almost every night with their friends and the friend's mom watches them.. whatever. Now I can actually get a job where I can bring home good money EVERY week. So that's what's been going on with me..

Still looking for a house. No luck yet. Man it's tough out there for pet owner's now a day's. Umm other than that that's about it..

Til Next Time Bloggers
Chubbz

I've been too tired.. to busy to even post on here. Having 3 kid's is ALOT of work.. haha. So in between planning dinner's, homework, then cooking, shower's etc... you know where I'm coming from.. becoming a "parent" overnight is very tireding right now. But on the up side, the kid's father has or had off the last 4 day's. So that has given me a little break. But tommorrow he goes back to work.. so then I'll be busybusybusy again.

On the plus side I got paid for babysitting this weekend.. almost six hundred bucks!! Yeah-Yeah!! It's almost all gone. I got the hubby a whole new outfit.. including shoes and matching hat. It felt good.. I got a pair of pant's, a baby tee, a sweater thing, and my crest white strips. For the house I bought a new toaster oven, I needed a new toaster so I got a toaster oven and it's nice!

Hmm.. I think that's about it.. I gotta run the timer for the dryer just went off.. so I got's to fold the clothes.

Til Next Time..
Chubbz

I am very happy to announce that we finally got our van back after being in the shop or the in-laws driveway for almost 3 months. Safe Auto sucks. We hit a deer in the begining of June and just got the van back like 3 day's ago.. cause it took forever for Safe Auto to send out the person who come's and writes down the damage, then after they finally did that it took another 2 weeks for them to contact us on where the van will be going.. finally we get it there and they stall on sending the check!! So needless to say we finally got it back and boy am I happy.. not happy about the five hundred dollar deductable that we had to pay this weekend.. along with our car payment... and insurance. So basically were broke we will be lucky if we have 50 dollars (after the hubby buys cigrettes) for the next two weeks! YAY.. it's soo fun being broke. haha. Go figure we finally got our van back but now don't have the money to go anywhere and do anything!! Suprise suprise! huh?

Today is the hubby's birthday! I think I might suprise him and go on a ride with him on his dirt bike. Yes I will be scared to death.. but I know it definately will be a present that he will love. Tommorrow I fill you in on the details on whether or not I actually did or will do it or not..

Til Next Time..

-Chubbz